2012 Improvements and Discoveries
2012 was an interesting year with a lot of changes. The addition of taking the sleeping pill called Ambien increased my quality of sleep and the switch to Cimzia reduced my pain and fatigue. So 2012 was a good year but many strange things go with it, like with the use of Ambien. First I find it strange to take a drug that has labels stuck to the bottle like do not drink alcohol, take on an empty stomach and to use caution when driving a vehicle or operating dangerous machinery. Then you pull the insert out of the bag and it lists sleep walking, sleep driving, binge eating and performing other daily tasks while sleeping as side effects. Just a little crazy tell me what to do and what not to do then tell me I may do it anyway! So far we have only lost some honey mustard pretzels and peanut butter cookies with milk which caused me to have a stomach ache and Lloyd to miss out on some cookies. I wonder why I do not sleep eat fruits and vegetables? And why can’t I do some dishes and laundry while doing other tasks while sleeping? I also have strange dreams which can be a little humorous and sometimes a little creepy but I am not fighting off spiders or anything like that. Still I may need to switch sleeping pills, not sleeping as great lately but still better then I was before I started taking it.
I began the year with extreme pain in the shoulders and neck which led to me writing bad week with hard lessons and learning to sleep against the wall because laying down caused extreme pressure in my head. I still have not been able to take laying down on a bed; instead I use a neck pillow and sleep on the couch so I am propped up some. Using the neck pillow was a great discovery for me and has relieved stress in my neck. I later learned that my neck is now curved opposite of what it is supposed to be, one disc is thinning and another has slid into my spine just a little. The doc says I am fine though. I will say anytime my shoulders/neck are even a little stiff and I look up when looking down or if moving my head from one side to another I get dizzy. I also deal with pressure headaches, brain fog, breathing problems and optical migraines that increase with stiffness so it does not feel fine to me but the tests show it is no big deal.
I learned to remember to use my Bluetooth when making phone calls but even if I do that does not mean I will be great in a conversation; fatigue still happens. Now if I can remember to look at the postit notes or read reminders that pop up! I also learned bar stools are evil as they not only increase pain but pressure headaches, breathing problems, choking, light sensitivity, brain fog and fatigue. It seems to go with how stiff or weak my shoulders and neck feel because of the way the disease is attacking more than my joints. The choking and breathing problems started around the same time the stronger attack on my neck and shoulders started happening. I remembered my mother choking often when eating and drinking, I thought it was normal for a Rheumatoid Arthritis patient to deal with it. The breathing problems started happening when the choking problems started, I thought it was my allergies or asthma but have found it is related to the amount of stiffness or weakness I am dealing with and chances are greater for both the longer or more I have done during the day.
The switch from the low dose chemotherapy (Methotrexate) and the biological drug (Enbrel) to the biological drug Cimzia has been good improvement for me also. I have gone from pain 24 hours a day to periods during the day with no pain at all. I can kiss my boyfriend without a sharply increasing pain in my neck so he no longer feels like such a pain in the neck. I can walk on driveway slopes without increasing foot pain. Instead of my weekly outing being Lloyd driving me to the store for groceries, I can make it out for Business & Beer with new friends and out many other times during the week. I can get groceries on my own and drive myself around most of the time.
I forget I have my shoes on most of the time now. I can move my shoulders to the music and carry my purse. My dog is no longer losing hair; he can lie next to me and usually not cause me pain. I have even been able to pick him up more often and have him sit on my lap; he is only 11 pounds. I noticed he had learned to stay away and is now coming up to me more. I also learned both dogs will stick near me when I am in the worse pain especially if Lloyd is not around. But Hershey is not getting so lucky when I juice now, not as much falling to the floor.
Not only can I lay my arm above my head again without losing feeling in it but I was also able to workout many times during the week before the end of the year when the rain and weather change here. Cold and rain have always been something that increases pain, fatigue and stiffness for me. So I am hoping that working out will happen again as it warms up. Overall improvements over 2012 have been great even though I now have damage in my neck.
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